Life Journey

2011-11-08T11:21:00.000-08:00

Woah... I just noticed something. all my old posts were all so emo and dramatic LOL... ok I will remove it if I had time.. cya. just passing by :)

A little gift I buy for myself.

2010-09-24T21:44:00.001-07:00

I just happen to saw this little cute bear with the date of my birthday on it, and so without a second thought I just go straight ahead and buy it.LoL

Well it's a blue bear with a "8 August" printed on it. I just love this kind of stuff that is related to my birthday or my zodiac. I name the bear "Aoi-chan" LOL!

I have to keep moving on

2010-06-25T01:48:00.000-07:00

They are all on their own. Meaning I have to move on too. Thinking back the past time ain't getting me anywhere it will only bring back those memories and regret. I'm on my own now, apparently none to hang with that's why I need to be strong.

Random rambling..

2010-06-12T10:21:00.000-07:00

Well well.... how long has it been since last time i update... ok apparently I have no mood in doing anything... I feel so empty and I don't feel excited or anything.... and somehow I begin to think that I am like a 'Leftover' well... I don't just come with this out of no where...

First thing is... sometimes I felt that I am needed or should I say there is place for me... and other time I felt that I don't fit anywhere (awkward silence)... and at that moment I felt like disappearing at that instant (now I have the policy of "Silence is gold" YAY..! -.-" )...And now I become so sensitive with my phone... =.= should I say I've developed a habit of "checking your phone every minute even though you know no one is going to text you" oh well..... I am becoming more and more miserable everyday... and pathetic... but anyway I still have to move on... yeaa it totally feels like Im restarting everything...

Second thing is everything has totally changed... the time that I cherish is no longer here...... the fun time I usually have is no more here... now the only fun thing I have is watching anime alone in my room... and doing my assignmnt which no fun at all... and nowadays I think a lot of stuff... and I have really weird dream... =A= and no one to tell...

not going out of my room for 1 day used to make me crazy.... but now... I feel like Im better off stay inside my room.. watching anime and staring at Yunho's pic (and start giggling for some reason... Im crazy bout him k? >///< )... and I wish I can get my motivation back by that....

Anyway... this is just a random rambling of mine....

Im boredddddd and wish someone to talk to and tons of assignmnt waiting... *sigh*

update

2010-05-20T03:21:00.000-07:00

New sem start and now I am in my major year...well actually it's still consider as foundation...new classmates and new friends...yeah...I felt something is different I don't know whether it is just me being paranoid or maybe that's the fact.

Well....how could I say... Lonely ? maybe.... the truth is I don't want to refer to myself as being emo... erm...facing two difficult choice such as being myself or trying to fit in. I obviously prefer the first choice but as in real life the second choice is more like it. Walking down my own path sure needs lots of sacrifice and I know that well.

Im posting this not because I wanted to..I just can't find anyone to hear this out... well I guess Im becoming more and more poetic ?? O.o

LoL....ok now back to work...

What the hell is wrong with people these days???

2010-03-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

I am really pissed off when I see so many people detest the earth hour. I mean we live on EARTH and it is out duty to protect our planet...some people just comment like "it's my right to turn on my light you stupid biatch" WTF is that..!??!?!?!

I really don't get it...THAT KIND OF PEOPLE Shall DIE...I really mean it...!! they should die and be burned to ashes until NOTHING left from them...

It's just one hour to turn off your light...it's not like you are gonna die or something....our ancestor used to live without light at all....you turn off your light for one hour I know it won't help our earth that much since WE human destroy our OWN earth too much already... And I really angry when I saw this comment "i have the right to leave my lights on and consume every ounce of fossile fuel i can. my life my rules you get off my planet biatch...." Let me tell this BASTARD something....YOU... are FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT....!! there won't be any fuel left if everyone in the world think like you....you are just some spoil ignorant people that don't care about your own planet...go build your own planet...

I am sorry if my post is really rude but I am so damn pissed off with these type of people

anyway... I am planning to join the earth hour

SAVE OUR EARTH

update XD

2010-02-07T10:11:00.000-08:00

okay now....I apparently have no time to update my blog very often....so once I update I will make it super long....haha(I guess...-.-a)

Currently I'm so into "Hikaru no Go" (For those who don't know google it) it's actually a really...not really long though anime...I've finished reading the manga and watching the anime...it's awesome..!! and I don't know why....when I watch the sad part in the anime I cry....TWICE (coz I watch twice XD)....okay...this is new for me... -.- but then...if you ask me...I really recommend this haha... I'm so in love with it XDD

Anyway...Chinese New Year is coming....!!!! Wohooo~ going back home....wish I will get ang pau... :P

but then...this is the only time the whole family gather...so eventhough lots of assignmnt..I still want to go back home....

This week have been a really fun week and so as the money that flow out of my pocket ( my money...T.T) but then it's worth it...since it's my friends' b'day....probably because I have so much fun...now I'm too lazy to do my assignmnt.... T_T and somemore I got tons of new movie to watch..... >.< *sigh* I just want to relax.... TT.TT

And Naruto update.... (*Naruto fan hoho~) *sigh* as usual another shocking truth...now I pity Danzo....eventhough I used to really hate him....but now I give him my sympathy....

as for Sasuke... I really want to smack him..!! Bakaa Sasuke...!!

okay...fiuh....got lots more stuff to type but....have to get back to my assignmnt.... =.=

Dream....

2010-01-13T09:25:00.000-08:00

Why did I feel so suffocated...I don't even understand my own feeling now...should I just let it go with the flow...?? or should I......

I don't even know what to do...if this how it's suppose to be...please give me a sign...I can't stand this...I know it's a impossible thing and everyone would laugh at me...and they did so...thinking I was joking but actually it's not...

I want to talk to my friend but they won't understand it...I can only pour it out in here....each time I remember him I will feel more and more suffocated and I...realize that this is all just mere dream...but I just can't stop thinking that this might be true....I would like to believe that dreams do come true...and I dream about him 3 times... T.T that makes me even more suffocated....

back to college life

2010-01-04T09:34:00.000-08:00

Now back to college life....everything started again...

And I don't know why the moment I step into my hostel room I feel unbelievably so homesick I feel like grabbing all my luggage and flew back to my hometown....but I can't do that....

And the moment I think about my home the more I feel homesick I never felt sth like this before.....

I hope I can bear it and do all my best for my study and make my family proud of me....

Lonely is not the word to describe what I feel it's just I'm not used to be separated from home too long and everything takes time....

Guess now what I can do is try to get rid of my homesick and start doin my assignmnt....

And I have to be prepared for what it takes to study here eventhough sometimes I feel like I'm dying but this is the process I have to pass in order for me to achieve my dream...

Good luck for me....

I miss u all my family....

new year

2010-01-04T09:32:00.000-08:00

new year means everything in the past is history and we all must look forward for the future and think positive....

I hope I can achieve my dream and I'll do my very best...!!

2010-01-01T05:07:00.000-08:00

Parents always blame thing to us children and they think they are the one that is always right
Hate it...!!
They are such an asshole....!!!

They will say stuff like this
"your parents work their ass off all day and you just sit at home doing nothing"

Oh come on...!! I just got sem break and I'm suppose to enjoy myself

pissed me off...!!

Feel so pissed

2009-12-17T10:29:00.001-08:00

I feel like I was totally ignored today....I'm so damn pissed off...damn it...!! I don't know whether they do it on purpose or they just don't notice that.....but it seems to me that they purposely ignore me....whatever...!!

I know I have to control my emotion...but I feel like typing it here so it can make me more relieved....

*sigh* really wish to hangout with my old friends....T^T miss them soo much and I also miss my high school time....now I don't really mean it but it seems that the friends I have now don't really suitable for me....=.= hate to admit it but it's true...yea well...but we can still be friends...

>.<

Back home

2009-12-16T01:34:00.001-08:00

Everything feels so nostalgic...miss those days....where you hang out and don't have to really worry about what happen tomorrow where you can just relax and do all stuff you want....

Nothing really changes here...except for the people...all my friend most of them work and have no time to really enjoy their life...really looking forward to meet them....wonder how they look like now...hope I can still recognize them hahaha.....

so many things to do...hope can do all that stuff before going back to malaysia.... XD

Best wishes for all....

Nice day~

2009-12-11T03:40:00.000-08:00

What a nice day....
Having bbq in Anderson's place....it's awesome...somemore someone brought PS3 first time playing PS3...It's so damn cool~ and someone bring guitar hero..!! gyaaa.....first time playing that also....haiz now I feel like I'm so pitiful....never play PS2, PSP, Wii, =.= damn....
Have to save money to buy PSP ahahahha...>.<

But anyway it's a really nice experience hanging around with classmates...having crazy stuff and nice food...I really like Hiba's potato salad...teach me how to make ittt... >3<
too bad it rained haha if not we can have bbq longer....

Btw....have a nice holiday everyone.... XDDD

Time to rest is coming XDD

2009-12-08T07:10:00.001-08:00

At last after days and weeks and hours and other stuff 'coz chasing the deadline and lack of sleep (Got really big eyebag now T^T) going back to Medan...huahahahahaha....misss my family and friend..

But at last the presentation is over..have to stick with that stupid ass is a pain in the ass..and today even saw "rising stomach" "GOD DAMN IT cover it you moron...!" damn man...really wish not to see that stupid ass again.... but then have to deal with it next sem... hope I can cope with it....
Life as TOA student is tough but I won't give up...! Ganbante...! XD

Holidaaay~ I'm cominggg~
To do list :
~sleeeeepppp straight 2 days
~umm...dunno hahaha later decide once I reach back home

2012 is awesome !!

2009-11-19T09:07:00.000-08:00

What a great day get to watch 2012 after failed to watch it last week, because ticket sold out hahaha...! It's a really nice movie ! but I still can't believe that the one who do the special effect is student from TOA O__o , is that for real?? Whoaa !! hope that will be me in future and can make something awesome like that.

But then a bit about 2012 if the end of the world really happen that will be so scary but somehow 2012 is like a reminder for us to protect our planet,earth . But I really recommend everyone to watch this awesome movie . XD

now time to continue my assignment yourshimi hapshida..!

Frustrated !

2009-11-14T05:55:00.001-08:00

I'm really frustrated not only loads of assigment somemore I'm stuck with 2 lazy groupmates and I as the leader do all the work. They don't do even single thing and they don't even call or email me to ask about the topic that means they don't care ! I have had enough ! I can't take it anymore ! I prefer to work alone better than working with that 2 MORON...!!

malaysia imigration so lame

2009-11-13T06:10:00.000-08:00

At first I feel really happy that my visa come out after all the delay but then you know what ? the imigration state my gender as "male" which is a problem and now I have to wait another week to have my visa done . Just hope they don't delay it too long AGAIN. 'coz I alrdy book my ticket . I though malaysia is way better than Indonesia but still it is roughly the same .

*this is just my opinion though

Life in Malaysia

2009-09-28T03:35:00.000-07:00

It's pretty tough getting used to different things but everything takes times. Well, there's some issues I'm not really used to like the food... 'cause malaysia's food is pretty different with Indonesia's food but well there's no choice isn't it ? haha...But now I'm pretty used to the life here just hope everything will be fine. And I miss my family and friends too . I will keep doing my best . Fight ! =D

Testing

2009-09-28T02:54:00.000-07:00

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